a group meeting in just about 2 hours.

i have hardly done anything all morning.

these days, the sun shines and i get up.

i haf my first vege-quarian party yesterday.
some close aussie frens and loads of food, wine and beer.

the menu yesterday:
1) chickpea salad
2) basil veg salad wif balsamic
3) jamie oliver fish fried stuffies
4) hommus dips
5) anchovies tapas
6) cheese and sweet chilli dips
7) salt and peppa squid
8) pasta wif carrots and zucchini

so there. a very full meal without meat.

im enjoying my new diet alright.

sunset on the island on burano

these days, i can only think about how I had wished this and that could have happened and i might be back in the affection department.

but no, im in the 'freezer' compartment now.
cold like frozen peas and stone-like.

days couldn't have past if i am not the way i am now.
a little defrosting is needed and i could say that somewhere 2 yrs back, i had a little defrostation done but along came heart aches.

life is confusing.

getting wasted on wine and smoking like a chimney.

at times, i feel like i dun wanna entertain pple i dun enjoy being with.
but only to find out that im a person who can fake that smile and the hi.
got invited to a party where i only know 2 people out of that 10-20 people.

oh well.
i am certain the wine and smokes made me feel at ease.
small lil' chats and looking lovely.

and i got an easter bunny today.

i really don't understand why i have to go thru' so much shitz.
sometimes trying to please everyone ain't the way to go.
and i myself is in heaps of trouble as well.
*sighz*

sometimes i hate being me.
right now, i wish i can pack up and leave.
to stockholm, to spain, to anywhere where i do not know anyone.

that is why i left to come to adelaide.

love mardi gras. every bit of it.